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SMH Moment Number One

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Imagine this, you did all of your Algebra homework and you were so proud of yourself. Then bam, your instructor posts at the last minute that you did great work except for the fact that you did the wrong problem.

So, you are like “okay, I got this” and you redo the equation. But then you later realize that you have to do it all over again because you use the quadratic formula instead of factoring like the homework says to do!

That’s me right now. That’s the situation I am in, currently and I am dreading to have to do another math problem for the third time. I am currently shaking my head a thousand times at myself. Wish me luck!

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The Battle

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Life is constantly moving in all different directions. It sometimes goes so fast that I feel like I can’t catch up with anything. The days just go by and I still haven’t gotten everything in my life completed by the end of the day. It really leaves me feeling defeated and hopeless. I’ve been feeling this way for way too long. It’s time to get control, keep control, and satisfy the necessities I have in life.

The last thing I want to do is make my blog feel as though I am writing it for media purposes or being paid to write something, so all of my work is authentic and my actual feelings. It’s Veronica in the flesh.

The battle is usually only half the struggle, for me though, it seems to be like the whole damn thing. It’s hard to get up in the morning knowing that I have absolutely zilch control over my life right now. For me, it’s pinpointing when I lost control and how to get it back. You may be wondering, what control am I referring to? Let me elaborate….I feel that I’ve lost control over my body, my mind, my house, and financial freedom.

In the months of empowering other women to do the best they can in life, I’ve lost my own empowerment and that’s not a fun thing to go through. I’ve lost my positive outlook on life and I guess everyone goes through these times. Let’s start with my struggles:

Parenting

As a parent, it is super difficult admitting that you’re not doing something right. Here I am, full disclosure, I’m not doing something right.  I read a post the other day that said blaming your children for your dirty house is a terrible excuse and you should be able to clean it regardless of having kids. The thing about that is, when you have so many kids (we have six) and they are super young in age, the house is going to get messy and keeping it clean is going to be difficult. Both my husband and I can clean all day long and our children will literally follow behind us and destroy what we have done. If I want a spotless house I won’t be able to do anything but clean it, 24/7. My older 4 children seem to not understand what neatness is. They will pretend to pick up the house and their messes, then sit right back in front of whatever electronic that has their minds intrigued. It’s time I put a stop to that.

Financial Freedoms

Financial struggles happen to all of us and I’ve been the person that received a $500 utilities bill and didn’t know how the hell I would pay it. I used to have to run around our small town and try to get help from businesses when that would happen. That’s not what I’m talking about here. We’re not necessarily struggling financially, which I am thankful for. It’s the lack of extra money. We want things and we can’t always buy what we want. I see so many people who decide they don’t want to cook that night and they run out and buy these big ass meals and they always have extra money. Somewhere along the line, I messed up and didn’t budget very well and now I have to fix it before we can have any extra income. I want to make a promise to myself that I will somehow rise above this and get back on track so that we can save money and spend money. (Before anyone comments anything assholeish we have six kids but we don’t get food stamps, so yea there’s not that extra money).

Body Image

Carrying a baby in you is such a beautiful experience and it was amazing to feel those little flutters and kicks…. and then giving birth is such a spiritual awakening. Now lets times this by six and now I have a body that I don’t love. Prior to getting pregnant with our last son, I was working on being healthy and eating right, exercising. I would exercise multiple times a day for up to 2 hours a day sometimes. I would do it on my breaks (because I work from home), before bed, after I woke up, any time I thought I needed to exercise. No, I wasn’t skinny and I was obsessed with trying to lose weight, which was not healthy at all. Now, I’m like two in a half years after giving birth to our last son and I am ashamed of how I look. I cry over it. I have to gain control and I need to exercise and diet the proper way. I’ve stopped drinking Dr. Pepper, and I have tried Keto, Paleo, and Whole 30, some things just don’t work for me very well. Now, I am attempting to up my water intake, drink water in the morning, lower my caffeine intake.

These are just some of the struggles I’ve been facing in 2018. If you’re anything like me you tend to want things to happen right now and you’re super impatient. I have a support group for health on Facebook, it’s called Health Crunch and I will share it to my Facebook page!

Posted in Mixed Six

Purge…AND… I’m out✌🏻

Wait… purge?

Have you ever just needed someone’s attention and it’s like you’re screaming so loud but yet no one can hear or see you? Almost as though you’ve become a ghost to people that matter to you. Now don’t get me wrong I am very much aware that people have their own lives and they must live them. However, I am a firm believer that we all need the comfort of other people and to have others in our lives. It’s not healthy to be lonely.

What am I getting at?

Three years ago I left the face of the book, friends, family and everything. The tension and drama got so bad that I was unable to handle the stress of FB. Well, last year I realized how important it is to stay in the zone with my kids school and I can do it easily but FB. Which made me reactivate it and thus starting an entire new chapter in my social media frenzy. I am calling it quits again. I don’t want to be that close to people. I don’t want to check my FB 24/7 to see what others are doing, I don’t want to see someone who dislikes me or me dislike them liking things and then creep on their stuff, I don’t want to feel entrapped in the world of FB and all the problems that come with it. Thus… I am not deactivating it but I will not be participating in my FB profile.

What does this even mean?

It means though I will have an active profile and have friends on there I will not be updating you on my life. Now, I may continue to add photos of the kids every now and then. I will be on my group and still running it. I will have messenger installed on my phone in case teachers need to reach me. I will be available for contact. I will also be running my FB Page with the same name.

All Other Social Media….

I have deleted all my social media apps from FB, Snapchat, all the way to Instagram. If you really want to find me I guess you would know how.

I will be updating you on my recent Keto results and blog changes so please follow me to stay up to date!

Posted in Mixed Six

Open Your Eyes

Negativity surrounds humanity as if it’s the air we breathe. It dampens our hearts and brings fear into our souls. Negativity can make us numb and it can paralyze us. When we realize that we are the ones who bring negative energy into our own little positive world we will only then defeat and rise above.

For those of you who personally know me, you know that I don’t believe the same ways as everyone else. My mind is like an open book willing to take new information in, but one thing will always be for sure, I believe what I believe and some things you won’t be able to change my mind on.

I believe that we are in control of our own destiny, that every single thing on this Earth has a place. I believe in or nature and that nature heals all. I believe in so many things that a blog post is not enough to get you to open your eyes to all the beautiful and wonderful things in this world.

In order to see things from a different perspective, we must stop judging others for their choices. We must stop judging others for the way they see things and maybe open up to their points of views. After all, there’s an entire universe that is unknowing out there.

To say one type of perspective is wrong would be to say that you 100% know for sure what there is after this life. None of us know what is after this life, we only know what we believe in and have faith in. We only know what we were raised to know or what we taught ourselves.

To conclude this post, let’s get involved in the world around us. Study new and wonderful things. You don’t have to believe in it, just see the possibilities with how things work. Kind of like opening up a computer and figuring out what makes it run.

-queenofhartsxoxo

 

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I am the Omega woman

People, who know me know that I love werewolves and vampires, so why not use the terminology to describe myself? Omega actually does not come from the lonesome wolf that we all know. It comes from the Greek word meaning a person who has been or feels rejected by society. Being rejected by society is not always a bad thing and here’s a post on how I am the Omega woman.

Not many people can actually really say they associate with me. They don’t know my thoughts or what is going on in my day to day life. Heck, they don’t even stop to say hi to me when they do see me. I know some people just add me on Facebook to be nosey but there is nothing to find there. I post about my kids and crunchy things. Maybe a humorous post here and there, but nothing really that come from my mind and heart.

 

I keep to myself. I have not always been this way. I actually started out posting all my cry baby business on Facebook because being a crybaby was my life and I am the first to admit this. I was so down on myself and had no shame in letting the entire world know how I really felt about my relationship. I’m actually ashamed of this.

I spend 99% of my time with my kids and doing mom things. Most of my friends don’t do this. If there’s an event at the school, you bet I’m there in each and every one of my kid’s classes. If my kid needs help with homework, I’m there to help him through it and to teach him what he doesn’t know. If the splash pad is open, you bet I’ll be going to that once a week or multiple times just to spend time with my kids. There’s a new superhero movie out, I’ll be there to see it with my boys.

I don’t allow others to tell me how to parent my kids. Like those people who ask why I’m so picky about the chemicals coming in my household or who get sick of hearing me talk about organic this or organic that. Hey, if you’re sick of it, there’s a door and please don’t talk about your bad chemical filled household, I don’t judge you, please don’t judge me.

I’m an open book. You have a question? I’ll answer it.

I push people away and I really can’t help it. I’ve had a ton of those people that were here one day to get their entertainment on and gone the next. I’m used to it. Please don’t let that door hit you on the way out because I’m not here to entertain you.

My loyalty game is strong. I’m loyal to my kids first and above all, my husband comes in a close second and friends/family are last. If they don’t like you, chances are I don’t like you.

I don’t fit it. I don’t go clubbing, I don’t care if you like my car or my house or the way I dress. I don’t care if you like that I breastfeed, cloth diaper, or the way I walk. This is me, you either like it or take a hike.

I am there for people even when they aren’t for me.

Conclusion

I am an Omega because I choose to be different. I don’t really go around saying I’m an Omega woman, but this is the term that can describe how I am. I don’t care what others think or how they feel anymore. I will not respond to the pettiness of others.

-queenofhartsxoxo

 

Posted in My Opinions

Time4Learning Review

I usually don’t do too many reviews on my blog but I have been trying to find an alternative method for my kids to use while studying for school. I have one child, in particular, that is a bit behind in his education and I had to look at various websites to see what homeschool/after school options were best for his needs.

What is Time4Learning?

Time4Learning is a website that you can enroll your children in for either after school study, homework or just to have a little extra education.

Costs

Since they offer multiple pricing options and sometimes a discount I won’t go into details about costs. However, you are more than welcome to check out their website at Time4Learning.com for more information about prices.

My Experience 

As a parent, I had a hard time finding a platform that would live up to my standards. I want my kids to learn a lot and have fun doing it. I like to also be in control over what my child is learning and Time4Learning allowed me to do just that. With their platform, I was able to assign certain assignments to my son and we also have a nice paper trail of what he has done.

I like the fact that we can keep grades and have a record of everything in case I do decide to homeschool him some time.

My Recommendation

I would 100% recommend a parent to use Time4Learning for homeschool or after school extra education reasons.

I was compensated for this, but this is a true review of my own thoughts and Time4Learning did not tell me what to write.

Posted in My Crunchy Life

Look at the Box!

Food is just wonderful. I love food, it’s just so great to get a tasty meal and get your tummy full. What you don’t know is that 90% of what we call food, really isn’t food at all. If you go to my Facebook page you will see just what I’m talking about. A man finally looked at the box of cereal his kids were eating and discovered it had Trisodium Phosphate in it.

What is Trisodium Phosphate?

Glad you asked! It’s paint thinner. Yes, you read that right. Our kids’ cereal has paint thinner in it. You can read more about it on Online Holistic Health.

Side Effects

Quoted Directly from Livestrong:

 If you consume large quantities of trisodium phosphate in its crystallized form, you are likely to experience abdominal pain and a burning sensation in the digestive tract. Large doses may cause chemical shock or collapse, according to the International Programme on Chemical Safety. As a dry powder, trisodium phosphate has a corrosive effect on your skin, eyes and respiratory system. If you work with chemicals, avoid smoking or eating on the job before washing your hands.

You can read more here.

Thoughts

Read the Box! Yes, it takes more time in the store but stop and read everything on the back of package and boxes. You will be completely surprised at what you discover. Get to know your foods!

I have been on a clean eating adventure since the start of 2017. It has been really difficult for me. Because everything has chemicals and awful things in them. You basically have to eat fresh. But, paint thinner in food that is marketed to children? That is beyond disbelief. Please take a moment and educate yourselves before allowing little tummies to eat these awful foods.

-Queenofhartsxoxo